I am exhausted physically and mentally from acting.

　　It was the same since childhood. He worked harder than others, but he could never get first place. At first it was studying, then painting, and then love. Now even when it comes to being Ji Mingxuan’s lover, he is the last one to come out on top.

　　Although Shen Mo was in a low mood, he didn’t give up on himself. Since he couldn’t match others in talent, he had to work harder. He sacrificed his sleep time to download a bunch of gay videos, saved them in a folder called “learning materials”, and wrote down his thoughts while watching them.

　　Just as I was concentrating, the cell phone rang.

　　Shen Mo picked up the phone and heard a familiar voice on the other end: “Shen Mo, it’s me.”

　　Shen Mo naturally recognized Zhou Yang’s voice. He hurriedly turned off the video and held the phone in his hand for a long time before asking, “How did you know my number?”

　　”An An told me.”

　　”Oh…” Shen Mo almost forgot about Ji An’an, “It’s so late, is there something you want to talk to me about?”

　　Zhou Yang hesitated for a moment and said, “I heard some rumors…about Ji Mingxuan…”

　　”Is it about Mingxuan and Zhao Yi? I heard about it, but it was all just a misunderstanding.”

　　”I probably know more than you.”

　　”Congratulations, you can sell the news to the tabloids.”

　　Zhou Yang was silent for a moment, then said, “Shen Mo, can you come out and meet me?”

　　”I said I wouldn’t see you alone again.”

　　”If you and Ji Mingxuan were living well, I would certainly not bother you again. But that’s not the case. I heard from An An that you were with him just to repay a favor.”

　　Shen Mo regretted telling Ji Anan so much. However, he acted out his experience and said without thinking: “Mingxuan did save me once, but this was just an opportunity for us to meet. Later… we were together because we loved each other. Otherwise, how could two people who had no feelings for each other be together day and night for three years?”

　　By the end of what Shen Mo said, he almost believed it himself.

　　But Zhou Yang still said: “I want to see you.”

　　”What will happen if we meet?”

　　”I…” Zhou Yang’s voice came through the phone, so low that it seemed unreal, “I can take you away.”

　　Shen Mo grabbed the phone tightly.

　　Three years ago, he was waiting for these words every day. As long as Zhou Yang was willing to say it, he would follow him even to the ends of the earth.

　　But he never came.

　　Things are different now. Zhou Yang has too many responsibilities and too many concerns, and he is the same.

　　”You are the only son of the Zhou family. Your parents will not agree.”

　　”It doesn’t matter if they don’t agree. I’m not joining my father’s company. I plan to start my own business.”

　　”What about Miss Ji?”

　　”An An…I will explain it to her clearly.”

　　Shen Mo remained silent.

　　”Xiao Mo,” Zhou Yang called him by his old nickname, “Do you remember where we had our first date? It was in Tianhe Park. We were still in high school at the time, and we foolishly went to see the plum blossoms on a snowy day, but we ended up missing our bus stop…”

　　Of course Shen Mo remembered.

　　He still remembered how happy he was at that time, and how many words he said along the way. It was incredible that Zhou Yang, whom he had secretly liked for so long, actually liked him the same way.

　　And now Zhou Yang was whispering in his ear: “Xiao Mo, I’ll wait for you at the old place tomorrow. Let’s… start over.”

　　Shen Mo suddenly came to his senses and said, “I have to go to work tomorrow.”

　　After saying that, he hung up the phone.

　　After a while, the phone rang again. Shen Mo saw that it was Zhou Yang’s name, so he simply turned off the phone and went to sleep.

　　Ji Mingxuan still didn’t come back that night.

　　Shen Mo asked for leave the next day and didn’t go to work. He didn’t go to Zhou Yang’s appointment either, but stayed at home to do the cleaning. The housekeeper came once a week, and Shen Mo didn’t need to do any work normally. He would only do this when he was in a bad mood.

　　When you focus on something, it’s easy to forget about your worries.

　　The weather was getting colder and colder, and it was so gloomy that it seemed like it was going to snow soon. Shen Mo looked at his cell phone, which had been turned off, and wiped every window in the house. He remembered the first time he dated Zhou Yang, and it was also in similar weather. He stood in the biting cold wind waiting for Zhou Yang, stamping his feet in the cold, but he only felt sweet in his heart.

　　Once time passes, it will never come back.

　　There may be many people in this world who can reconcile.

　　But, it will never be him and Zhou Yang.

　　This day was particularly long. After finally waiting until dark, just as Shen Mo was concentrating on wiping a stain on the floor, the doorbell rang. He threw down the rag and ran to open the door. When the door opened, it was Ji Mingxuan standing outside.

　　”Mr. Ji? Don’t you have your keys?”

　　Ji Mingxuan didn’t say anything. He leaned one hand on the door and squinted at Shen Mo.

　　Shen Mo took a step forward and smelled a strong odor of alcohol.

　　”Mr. Ji drank alcohol today?”

　　Ji Mingxuan said: “A little bit.”

　　Ji Mingxuan had a good alcohol tolerance. Sometimes when he went out for social events, even when the clients were drunk, he was still energetic and could handle documents when he got home. Shen Mo had been with him for three years and had never seen him drunk, so he didn’t take it to heart and turned back to continue mopping the floor.

　　Unexpectedly, Ji Mingxuan entered the living room, slowly slid down while holding onto the wall, and finally sat on the ground.

　　Shen Mo was startled and hurried over to help him. Only then did he realize that one of his gloves was missing, and his left foot might have stepped into the puddle, and even his shoes were soaked. In all the time they had known each other, he had never seen Ji Mingxuan in such a miserable state.

　　Shen Mo helped him sit on the sofa and asked, “Is Mr. Ji drunk?”

　　Ji Mingxuan raised his head, still staring at him, as if he was carefully identifying his face.

　　Shen Mo knew that he was very drunk.

　　”I’ll go make a cup of honey water.”

　　The drunk Ji Mingxuan was in a better mood than usual, neither making a noise nor making a fuss, just sitting quietly on the sofa. When Shen Mo came back with the water, he took a sip of the water from Shen Mo’s hand, then reached out and touched his cheek, and asked in a low voice: “…Shen Mo?”

　　He was so drunk that he couldn’t even recognize the person next to him.

　　Shen Mo was helpless, but still patiently answered: “Mr. Ji, it’s me.”

　　Ji Mingxuan asked again: “Why are you here?”

　　Shen Mo was embarrassed by his question and said, “Mr. Ji, have you forgotten? I have been living here all the time.”

　　Ji Mingxuan said “hmm”, and for some reason he laughed. He was handsome, and when he smiled, his eyes were even more seductive. He said softly, “Shen Mo, come closer.”

　　Shen Mo had never seen Ji Mingxuan so gentle, and he couldn’t help but move forward.

　　Ji Mingxuan smiled again.

　　Just when Shen Mo was caught off guard, he suddenly grabbed Shen Mo’s arm and pulled him into his arms.

　　Shen Mo suddenly bumped into Ji Mingxuan’s arms. He couldn’t see Ji Mingxuan’s expression, but he felt a warm breath brushing against his ears. The man’s voice was slightly hoarse, and he said word by word: “I caught you.”

　　It was as if the hunter had finally captured the long-awaited prey.

　　Shen Mo’s heart trembled.

　　The next second, the whole world turned upside down, and he was pressed down on the sofa by Ji Mingxuan.