Chapter 21: Little Crybaby, You Cry So Much

Cen Wan took two sips of brown sugar water and said, “You don’t need to thank me. I want you to do it willingly.”

“It’s not because of the effects of the medicine that I…”

She didn’t finish her sentence. Her tone was clearly unhappy, even a little sad. In her opinion, Lu Beixun just didn’t want to touch her, no matter the reason.

Lu Beixun remained silent.

Cen Wan placed the blanket on the bedside table, threw back the covers, and lay down, her back to Lu Beixun. “Go to sleep. Please turn off the light.”

Lu Beixun looked at her, his expression obscure. After a while, he turned off the room lights, leaving only the bedside lamp.

Usually, Cen Wan would cling to Lu Beixun at night, but tonight she was acting strangely, only giving him her back. She curled up in the blanket, motionless, as if she were asleep.

Knowing she wasn’t asleep, Lu Beixun leaned over and wrapped his arms around her waist. He reached out and touched her head. That’s when he realized she was crying.

He was a little surprised. “Wanwan…”

When Lu Beixun discovered her, Cen Wan wiped her tears haphazardly. Her voice was choked. “Don’t think too much. I’m not crying because of you.”

She said it wasn’t because of him, but she couldn’t help but cry harder. She sobbed uncontrollably, her words coming out in a jumble. “I just… saw a… really moving… movie.”

Seeing her cry so hard, Lu Beixun looked at her with sympathy. He sighed, gently wiped away the tears from the corner of her eyes, and asked softly, “Really not because of me?”

Cen Wan shook her head. “No.”

“Really?” His gaze was intense.

Cen Wan didn’t deny it anymore. Lu Beixun wasn’t stupid. She wasn’t crying because she was angry at him. She was afraid. Countless fears welled up inside her, and she cried harder and harder.

She couldn’t stop crying. “Is it because no matter how much I change, you’ll still insist on divorcing me a year later? Is that the real reason you don’t touch me, right?”

Cen Wan sobbed. She was afraid that a year later, Lu Beixun would insist on divorcing her.

Lu Beixun tightened his arms around her waist, holding her tightly. He gently kissed the tears from the corner of her eyes. They were salty.

“Wanwan,” he said softly, calling her name.

Cen Wan cried and said to him, “I’m changing. Don’t leave me.”

“Wanwan,” Lu Beixun sighed helplessly. He wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes with his thumb. “Don’t cry. I want you.”

How could he bear to leave you…

He said softly, “I don’t dislike you. It’s not because I want to divorce you that I don’t touch you. I’m afraid that one day you’ll regret giving yourself to me.”

“I don’t regret it,” Cen Wan said, stopping her sobs. “So, will we get divorced a year later?”

“A year later, whether we divorce or not, Wanwan decides.”

Cen Wan didn’t know that whenever she cried, Lu Beixun would immediately surrender. “At that time, if you want to leave, I’ll set you free. If you want to stay, we won’t get divorced.”

Lu Beixun was afraid. He was afraid she was just acting on impulse, afraid she would regret it.

Cen Wan didn’t know that Lu Beixun was doing all this for her.

She took his warm hand. Cen Wan’s gaze was serious and determined. “I won’t leave you.”

No matter how many choices she was given, her choice would always be to stay by his side. This time, she would hold his hand tightly and never let go.

She cried herself to sleep in his arms.

Lu Beixun watched her gently. He had made all the preparations, but he couldn’t bring himself to be cruel to her.

He had given in. Since he couldn’t escape, he would follow his heart. From the moment he agreed to the year-long observation period, he had already lost.

He kissed her on the forehead. His voice was indulgent. “Little crybaby, you cry so much.”

Cen Wan didn’t used to cry. She was a spoiled, carefree young lady. She didn’t know how to love, and there was nothing that scared her. Her family was always her safety net.

Now, she had someone she loved deeply, and she had things to fear.

Lu Beixun probably knew why Cen Wan had changed so suddenly.

These past few days, Cen Wan had been going to bed early and waking up early. She woke up at 6:30 this morning. She had been staying at the old house these past two days, so she didn’t have to be pulled out of bed to exercise. She could relax for two days.

Last night, she had lost control of her emotions and cried very hard. Thinking of Lu Beixun comforting her, she smiled, her white fingers tracing his outline.

Suddenly, her wrist was grabbed. The person in front of her opened his eyes. His eyes were as black as a deep pool.

Seeing that he was awake, Cen Wan leaned over and kissed him lightly on the corner of his lips. “You said that a year later, whether we divorce or not, it’s up to me. Is that true?”

Lu Beixun remained silent. After a while, he quietly “嗯”ed.

He got up, threw back the covers, and was about to get out of bed to wash up. Cen Wan clung to him, wrapping her arms around his lean waist. She rubbed her face against his neck like a kitten. “Do you love me?”

She guessed he did, but she was afraid she was being too confident, afraid she was being delusional.

“Tell me, do you love me?” Cen Wan clung to him, refusing to let go.

Lu Beixun’s lips curved up slightly. His eyes were gentle, filled with a smile. He didn’t give her the answer she wanted to hear. He pulled her arms away from his waist, stood up, and walked towards the bathroom without looking back.

He only left her with two words: “You guess.”

“Lu Beixun, you’re so childish. You’re making me guess.” Where did his cold, aloof demeanor go? She got out of bed and was about to go into the bathroom to continue questioning him, but the bathroom door closed as soon as she reached the door. She was shut out.

She knocked on the door twice. “I guess you love me.”

She really wanted to hear him say it. Cen Wan wrapped her arms around her chest and leaned against the bathroom door. “It’s okay if you don’t say it. Then listen to me.”

“Lu Beixun, I love you.”

“I love Lu Beixun.”

“Cen Wan loves Lu Beixun. She only loves Lu Beixun.”

Her voice was soft. Lu Beixun in the bathroom could hear her clearly, even through the door. The smile on his face in the mirror deepened.

Maybe it was because all the emotions from her previous life were bottled up inside her. In this life, she wanted to express them freely.

She continued to express her love. “Wanwan classmate loves Coach Lu very, very much…”

As soon as she finished, the bathroom door opened. Cen Wan was caught off guard and fell into the bathroom. She gasped, thinking she was about to perform a dramatic fall.

At that moment, a hand went around her waist. With a slight tug, he pulled her into his arms, stabilizing her. Cen Wan looked up, and their eyes met.

Her gaze fell on his sexy Adam’s apple. Cen Wan couldn’t help but swallow. He was so tempting.

Lu Beixun released her. “Wash up.”

He handed her a glass of water and put a toothbrush in her hand.

After breakfast, Lu Beixun went to the company. She and Lu Mu spent the day shopping. When they came back, they had so many bags that the trunk of the car was almost full.

Lu Mu bought Lu Fu a few suits and some loungewear. Cen Wan bought Lu Beixun two windbreakers in different colors and two jackets. Lu Beixun usually wore suits. She hadn’t seen him wear other styles of clothes besides loungewear.

She had bought Lu Beixun a lot of clothes recently. Whenever she saw a nice suit or shirt in the mall, she would buy it for him.

Now, his clothes took up most of the dressing room. He wore all the clothes she bought him.

Seeing him wear the clothes she bought him made Cen Wan incredibly happy.