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Yin Hanyu’s words struck Ming Yu’s heart like a heavy hammer, jolting her awake from her daze.
Yes, if she gave up on life so easily, wouldn’t all the pain and suffering she had endured be in vain?
What had she done wrong?
Why should she be the one to die?
It was those people who deserved to die!
A fierce will to survive ignited in Ming Yu’s heart.
“So, in order to stay alive, no matter what price I had to pay, I gritted my teeth and endured it.”
“Driven by extreme hunger, I had to make a difficult decision—to eat the revolting flesh of a rat.”
“When I placed that foul-smelling piece of rat meat into my mouth, the nauseating taste spread instantly…”
“But I forced myself to suppress the churning in my stomach and kept chewing…”
Tears streamed down her face uncontrollably, mixing with the food in her mouth, creating a taste so bitter and disgusting that it was unbearable.
But she swallowed it anyway.
Suddenly—
Ming Yu slowly turned around and looked directly at Yin Yixuan, continuing her story.
“I choked down the repulsive, tough rat meat while my body betrayed me, making me gag uncontrollably…”
“Every time I retched, it felt as if I was about to empty my entire stomach, a pain beyond words.”
“But even as my body suffered under these violent reactions, I clenched my teeth and kept forcing that nauseating rat meat into my mouth.”
“Because if I didn’t eat, I wouldn’t survive…”
Yin Yixuan felt his heart shatter into a thousand pieces as he listened to Ming Yu’s words. It was as if countless steel needles were piercing through him.
He couldn’t imagine that this extraordinary, beautiful woman had gone through such horrifying experiences. His heart ached with overwhelming sorrow and compassion.
But he didn’t know what to say.
Yin Yixuan reached out and pulled Ming Yu into a tight embrace, as if trying to warm and comfort her through his touch.
“Ming Yu…”
“Do you think I’m disgusting? There’s worse… I’ve drunk blood before.”
“Human blood, you know…”
“Stop… Ming Yu, please, stop talking…”
Yin Yixuan had never felt such pain before; he could barely bear it.
But Ming Yu didn’t listen to his plea. Instead, she lifted her head, staring straight into his eyes as she asked, “Why don’t you want me to say it? Because it’s too disgusting? Are you feeling sick just hearing about it?”
Facing her question, Yin Yixuan frantically shook his head. “No… it’s not like that…”
Ming Yu suddenly reached out, gently pressing her hand over his lips, silencing him.
Then, she took a deep breath, as if she had made up her mind, and continued speaking.
“Haven’t you always been curious about my past?”
“What I just told you—that is my past.”
“I was never some kind-hearted doctor who saves lives. On the contrary, I was a ruthless killer.”
“As long as someone was willing to pay enough money, no matter who the target was, even if they were innocent, I would raise my blade without hesitation and end their life.”
“That night, I even killed a child…”
At this point, Ming Yu paused briefly, but she quickly regained her composure.
“Yin Yixuan, do you know? The reason I approached you in the first place was to carry out an assassination mission.”
“That mission was…”
She stared at him intently and slowly uttered three words.
“To. Kill. You.”
Finally, she said it.
Ming Yu felt as if a heavy burden had been lifted from her chest.
She wasn’t someone who liked lying.
But this was something she had kept hidden for a long, long time.
Every time, she wondered—how much longer could she keep this secret?
She spent every day fearing what would happen if Yin Yixuan found out.
She didn’t even dare to imagine…
Because she was afraid he would hate her!
But now, it was out in the open.
He could think she was disgusting. He could hate her.
As long as he left.
She wanted revenge, but every debt had its debtor.
Her true enemy was Yin Haoting—not Yin Yixuan.
“Leave…”
Ming Yu’s face was deathly pale as she raised a trembling hand, pointing toward the door. Her eyes were filled with exhaustion and finality.
“You’re telling me to leave?”
“No, this isn’t about telling you to leave.” Ming Yu took a deep breath, struggling to calm the emotions surging within her. “Yin Yixuan, you were never supposed to be here in the first place.”
“I didn’t tell you all this to make you feel sorry for me, nor do I want your pity.”
“I just want you to understand that we are from two completely different worlds…”
“You grew up with wealth and privilege, like royalty, while I? From the moment I can remember, I have been beaten down, treated worse than an insect, lower than pigs and dogs…”
Her voice grew softer, laced with bitterness. “The things you find unbearable, the so-called cleanliness you insist on—those are luxuries beyond my reach.”
Ming Yu walked over to the table, picked up a kettle, and gently swirled the liquid inside. “Like this pot of water. To you, it’s been sitting here for days, so it’s undrinkable. But for me? I’ve drunk gutter water and even blood…”
“Right now, maybe out of impulse or pity, you feel a little heartache for me. But if we were truly together, every time you tried to kiss me, the moment you remembered that I once ate raw rat meat, wouldn’t you feel so sick that you’d vomit?”
“Ming Yu…” Yin Yixuan’s voice was sharp with emotion. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing. “Is that what you really think of me?”
Ming Yu curled her lips into a faint smile. “Do you remember that time on Yan Mountain? You climbed down into that pit, and just because of the stench in the air, you couldn’t stop vomiting…”
“I…” Yin Yixuan was suddenly at a loss for words.
“You don’t have to explain,” Ming Yu said softly. “You vomiting was just a natural reaction. And me not vomiting? It’s not because I have some special ability—it’s just because I’ve gotten used to that kind of environment.”
“I’m not saying this to blame you, nor to shame you.”
“On the contrary, I envy you.”
“You’re a good person. You’re outstanding. You deserve to live the life you have.”
“And I… I’m a terrible person. So, I deserve everything that has happened to me.”
“Yin Yixuan, we were never meant to be together. You don’t need to lower yourself for me. And I don’t need to feel small in front of you.”
“You will continue living your life as the esteemed second young master of the Yin family. And I will continue my life as Ming Yu.”
“This way, I won’t hurt you. And you won’t hurt me.”