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Wang Sasa rubbed her eyes, then rubbed them again.
On the snow-white paper, the black words were clear and unmistakable—it wasn’t fake.
Wang Sasa stared at the brown notepad on the desk with wide almond eyes, her expression frozen. She was on the verge of turning into a statue.
She murmured to herself, “So, Tan Yixuan likes me?”
Impossible, right? Didn’t she say it was just a joke?
But maybe… She touched her face—after all, it *was* her.
So it wasn’t just her imagination before, nor was it her being narcissistic! Tan Yixuan really did have a secret crush on her!
Realizing this, Wang Sasa suddenly stood up. She was so shocked that she accidentally knocked over the teacup on her desk, and tea spilled, soaking the snow-white paper.
She let out a startled cry and quickly ran to the bathroom to grab a towel, carefully wiping away the water. Then she grabbed a hair dryer and started blowing directly on the paper.
The paper dried, but it became stiff and wrinkled. Feeling troubled, she closed the notepad and pressed it under a thick dictionary.
“It’s just one page,” Wang Sasa thought. “Tan Yixuan probably won’t notice.”
She looked at the notepad being weighed down by the dictionary and frustratedly scratched her head, almost turning her hair into a bird’s nest.
She still hadn’t figured out her feelings for Tan Yixuan, so she couldn’t give her a response. For now, she could only pretend to be unaware.
Once she figured out what to do, she would confront Tan Yixuan’s feelings head-on.
Having made up her mind, Wang Sasa went back to sleep.
However, just before falling asleep, she received a text from Tan Yixuan inviting her to visit Grandma Tan at the hospital the next day.
Having just realized Tan Yixuan’s feelings for her, Wang Sasa initially wanted to refuse, but then remembered that Grandma Tan would be having surgery in a week, and she hesitated.
In the end, reason prevailed, and she agreed to Tan Yixuan’s invitation.
That night, Wang Sasa tossed and turned, unable to sleep with everything on her mind. When she woke up the next day, dark circles were visible under her eyes. Only thick concealer managed to cover them up.
She applied blush and lipstick, which brightened her appearance. After checking the mirror and ensuring her expression revealed nothing, Wang Sasa put on her coat and headed out.
Taking a taxi to the hospital, she walked into the ward to find Tan Yixuan serving porridge to Grandma Tan from a thermos. Both of them smiled when they saw her.
Tan Yixuan’s gaze lingered on her face, her eyes shimmering. “You haven’t had lunch, right? I made porridge. Would you like to try some?”
Grandma Tan smiled and called her over, “Shasha, come sit down.”
Tan Yixuan calmly corrected her, “Grandma, I’ve told you many times—her name is Sasa, not Shasha.”
Wang Sasa froze, her steps halting.
Grandma Tan immediately patted her forehead. “Oh, my memory! Sasa, you should’ve corrected me when I called you wrong. I’ve gotten so used to calling you Shasha.”
Wang Sasa forced a stiff smile and glanced at Tan Yixuan.
Tan Yixuan lowered her eyes, smiled slightly, and said nothing.
After Grandma Tan finished her porridge, Tan Yixuan took the dishes to wash them. This left only Grandma Tan and Wang Sasa in the ward, aside from the other patients.
Grandma Tan studied Wang Sasa’s expression carefully, sensing something was off and asked with concern, “Sasa, did you… have a fight with Yixuan?”
Wang Sasa was stunned and only regained her senses after a moment. “No, Grandma, why would you think that?” She paused and deliberately changed the subject, “By the way, Grandma, your surgery is next week, so don’t stress about it. Just eat well, sleep well, and don’t overthink things. Everything will go smoothly on the day of the surgery!”
Grandma Tan smiled warmly and patted her hand, “Thank you for your kind words!”
Wang Sasa smiled until her eyes squinted, but then thoughts of Tan Yixuan made her feel pressure again.
As Wang Sasa was about to leave, Grandma Tan asked Tan Yixuan to walk her out of the hospital.
The two walked down the long hospital hallway in awkward silence.
Wang Sasa didn’t know how to start a conversation, and Tan Yixuan, for some reason, remained silent too.
Just as they were about to leave the hospital, Tan Yixuan suddenly asked, “You don’t like it?”
Wang Sasa was so startled that she almost jumped in place. She stammered nervously, “W-what?”
Tan Yixuan glanced at her, pursing her lips. “The porridge at lunch—you didn’t touch it. Did you not like the taste?”
Wang Sasa continued to stammer, “Y-you’re talking about that?”
Tan Yixuan frowned slightly, confused. “What else did you think I was talking about?”
Wang Sasa quickly laughed it off, “Oh, nothing, I just misunderstood for a moment.”
Normally, Tan Yixuan wouldn’t push her, and the topic would end there.
But today, it was as if Tan Yixuan had become a different person—she had to get to the bottom of it.
She pressed, “What did you misunderstand?”
Wang Sasa’s heart raced in panic, and the constant questioning irritated her.
Frantically thinking of an excuse, she blurted out, “Oh, um… remember that pearl hairpin I gave you last time? Right, that! I thought you were asking me if I didn’t like the hairpin.”
Tan Yixuan fell silent, then sighed softly. She stepped closer to Wang Sasa and reached out toward her face. Wang Sasa’s expression changed, and she quickly backed away. “What are you doing?”
Tan Yixuan paused for a moment before continuing to pluck a leaf from Wang Sasa’s hair and held it up in front of her. “I just noticed it—must’ve stuck on you somewhere earlier.”
Wang Sasa, having assumed the worst, blushed instantly. She awkwardly forced a smile and explained her strange behavior, “I thought you were going to hit me or something.”
Tan Yixuan sighed again and shook her head. “Why would I? You’re overthinking. Is it because lately…” She trailed off, her gaze lingering on Wang Sasa thoughtfully.
Wang Sasa swallowed nervously and silently cursed herself. She quickly put on a carefree smile, clapping Tan Yixuan on the shoulder. “You’re so serious! I was obviously just joking!”
“Really?” Tan Yixuan eyed her skeptically.
Wang Sasa nodded firmly. “Of course!”
Seeing that Tan Yixuan wasn’t going to press further, Wang Sasa finally breathed a sigh of relief.
Watching her leave, Tan Yixuan stared at her slender figure for a moment, deep in thought. When she looked up again, a small smile played on her lips.
That weekend, Wang Sasa didn’t visit Tan Yixuan again. Instead, she stayed home to ponder life.
She needed to figure out how a straight girl like Tan Yixuan had been bent by her.
After much thinking, she could only come to one conclusion: her charm was too strong.
But she couldn’t let Tan Yixuan’s feelings make her feel defeated.
So, she had no choice but to bear the weight of this responsibility.
As for the diary? Her eyes darted around, and she decided to quietly return it on Monday without anyone noticing.
During break time, Wang Sasa deliberately took advantage of Tan Yixuan going to the restroom and sneakily stuffed the diary back into her bag. After doing this, she felt it was foolproof, and a huge weight lifted off her chest.
Since Tan Yixuan hadn’t confessed directly, she would pretend she hadn’t noticed for now!
Because she suddenly remembered her old goal—to set up Tan Yixuan with the person she liked.
But now, it was obvious that the person she liked was herself!
That meant that, in order to make Tan Yixuan happy, she had to sacrifice herself!
She couldn’t change her orientation—she simply couldn’t do it! So, forgive her for adopting the ostrich mentality; she needed to avoid this for a few more days.
What Wang Sasa didn’t know was that the next day, when Tan Yixuan discovered the diary and flipped through the pages, she saw the page Wang Sasa had dampened. A knowing smile appeared on Tan Yixuan’s face. She really had seen it…
Tan Yixuan closed the diary and looked deeply at Wang Sasa, who was filling a kettle with water at the back of the classroom. When Wang Sasa followed her gaze, Tan Yixuan quickly looked away.
Her fingers tightened around her pen, reminding herself to be patient. Just a little longer, and she’d get what she wanted. The restless desire in her heart was suppressed once again.
When Wang Sasa returned to her seat, Tan Yixuan casually asked, “My grandma is having surgery this Saturday. You’ll come, right?” Without waiting for a reply, she lowered her head and said, “I’m so worried. What if something happens? What would I do?” She looked up, unexpectedly grabbing Wang Sasa’s hands and holding them tightly. “Sasa, you’ll stay with me, right?”
Under Tan Yixuan’s intense gaze, Wang Sasa felt overwhelmed. She glanced down at her hands, which were firmly held, feeling even more pressure.
But she couldn’t let Tan Yixuan notice anything strange. Plus, she was worried about the surgery herself, so she hesitated and said, “Don’t worry, I’ll be with you.”
Tan Yixuan’s grip tightened as she asked, “Forever?”
In the past, Wang Sasa wouldn’t have overthought it, but now, hearing Tan Yixuan’s question, she hesitated. If she said “forever,” would that give Tan Yixuan false hope? But if she didn’t say it, what if Tan Yixuan got upset?
In the end, she avoided eye contact and mumbled, “Maybe.”
Tan Yixuan smiled at her, her expression unchanged. Her long lashes lowered, hiding a brief flash in her eyes. “Then I’m relieved.”
Saturday at the city hospital.
Tan Yixuan’s grandmother had surgery in the morning, and by the afternoon, she was so energetic that she insisted on leaving the hospital. Tan Yixuan and Wang Sasa quickly held her down, not allowing her to act out. After much persuasion, they managed to get her to stay for observation.
Since her grandmother hadn’t eaten lunch, Tan Yixuan decided to go home and cook as usual. She specifically invited Wang Sasa to join her.
Since it would be a quick trip, Wang Sasa didn’t mind.
Tan Yixuan told Wang Sasa to watch TV in the living room while she went to the kitchen to cook.
After watching TV for a while, Wang Sasa got bored and went to Tan Yixuan’s bedroom, planning to check her bookshelf and see if she had retrieved the diary.
Remembering that email, Wang Sasa thought Tan Yixuan was really too careless. How could she leave something as private and important as a diary just lying around?
She didn’t know who had taken the picture of the diary, but she needed to find out. That person obviously didn’t have good intentions toward Tan Yixuan. She was worried that if she didn’t respond, the person might lose control and make it public.
As she was lost in thought, a hand suddenly touched her shoulder from behind.
Wang Sasa jumped in shock and turned around to see Tan Yixuan. She gave an awkward smile and said, “Sorry… I was just looking through your bookshelf again.”
Tan Yixuan grabbed her by the shoulders, stared at her intently, and said nothing.
Wang Sasa’s heart started racing as she realized that Tan Yixuan might want to say something. Her heart leapt into her throat, and she stammered, “Tan Yixuan…”
Tan Yixuan lowered her eyes, her fingers sliding up from Wang Sasa’s shoulder to her cheek. She gently stroked Wang Sasa’s face and stepped closer, softly saying, “You saw it, didn’t you?”
Panic surged in Wang Sasa’s heart, and she took a step back.
Tan Yixuan’s bedroom was small, with only a desk, and her bed was right behind it. As Wang Sasa stepped back, she tripped and lost her balance, falling backward. She instinctively grabbed Tan Yixuan’s clothes, pulling her down with her.
What was happening now?
This was a situation that absolutely should not happen!
Wang Sasa quickly jumped up and righteously protested, “Tan Yixuan, don’t do this. It won’t pass censorship. Just stand over there and talk.”
Tan Yixuan looked at her, bewildered.
Wang Sasa paused, then swiftly moved to the other side of the desk, nervously watching her.
To be honest, when Tan Yixuan had approached her earlier, she had been scared.
In that moment, her mind had gone blank, and she was filled with shock and confusion.
If Tan Yixuan wasn’t watching her, Wang Sasa would’ve covered her face and groaned in embarrassment.
Tan Yixuan’s expression darkened, her breath close enough to feel. “Do you like me, Sasa?”
At these words, Wang Sasa gave a wry smile, one that looked worse than crying.
She tried to dodge the issue, saying, “Don’t come any closer… Let’s talk this through.”
Tan Yixuan stepped closer and pressed down on her shoulders, easily stopping her movements.
She smiled, though the smile didn’t reach her eyes. “Tell me, you read my diary, didn’t you?” She leaned in, her delicate face so close it was oppressive, her tone urgent and intense.
Unable to resist, Wang Sasa decided to surrender. She admitted, “Yes, I read it.”
Tan Yixuan couldn’t help but caress her cheek repeatedly, her hand still resting there. She leaned closer and whispered in her ear, “So… what do you think of me?”
What could Wang Sasa say? Rejecting her outright was clearly not a good idea. So, all she could do was stall.
She subtly avoided Tan Yixuan’s fingers and carefully chose her words, “Tan Yixuan, you’re great. But…”
Tan Yixuan’s fingers trembled as she grabbed Wang Sasa’s chin, turning her face to stare into her eyes. “Are you trying to say we’re not right for each other?”
Wang Sasa swallowed nervously and denied it, “No, no, that’s not what I meant. I’m saying… I think we need to develop our feelings first. Accepting you right now is a bit difficult for me, since I’ve never liked a girl before. So… shouldn’t we take time to develop our relationship first?”
Hearing this, Tan Yixuan gripped her chin and stared at her intently for a moment. Suddenly, she smiled, the joy reaching her eyes and brightening her entire face.
Wang Sasa began to worry that the blow might have driven Tan Yixuan mad. Concerned that she might lash out, she cautiously asked, “Tan Yixuan, are you okay?”
Suddenly, Tan Yixuan leaned in, embracing her as if she were holding a treasure. She never expected it—Wang Sasa was actually willing to accept her.
Overcome with happiness, Tan Yixuan’s whole body trembled, her eyes flushed with excitement. She couldn’t resist holding her tightly, taking a deep breath near her neck, and with immense joy, she whispered, “It’s okay, I’m willing to wait.”
Wang Sasa hesitated for a moment, then awkwardly patted Tan Yixuan’s shoulder. Had she said something that could be misunderstood?