Extra II: Chapter 133 – Love Letter

—Love Letter to Mr. Xu

Dear Xu Jian,

Hello.

For more than 20 years, I’ve received countless love letters, but this is the first time I’ve written one to someone. I haven’t read the letters others have given me, so I don’t know if what I’m writing now qualifies as a love letter. However, to make this letter feel more like one, I chose a pink envelope. Don’t laugh when you see it.

I’ve just started this love letter, but I’m already anticipating the expression on your face when you receive it. I can already picture you, with a playful glint in your eyes, laughing.

Today is your 25th birthday. I woke up early, and the weather wasn’t very good–dark and gloomy. The reason I’m writing this letter is that while frying eggs in the kitchen this morning, I suddenly remembered how you praised my handwriting. So, I decided to write a love letter for you.

It’s my first time writing this letter, so I’m not experienced or used to it, feel free to read it.

Since I was a child, I’ve always considered myself luckier than most people in the world. However, when I sleep while holding you, I often think that meeting you must be a favor from heaven. If that day you hadn’t been lost and panicked, if I hadn’t gone downstairs to have a meal, I might have missed you without even realizing it.

When I reached the words ‘missed you,’ I paused for about two minutes. In my mind, I hypothetically considered what I would be doing now if I hadn’t met you. Then I realized I couldn’t accept that assumption.

Maybe you’ll find this sentimental, but it’s genuinely how I feel at this moment. Perhaps people are inherently greedy; once we have the sun that gives us light and warmth, we’re unwilling to lose it again, even in hypothetical scenarios.

The first time I saw you, you showed no fear towards me, which surprised and delighted me. In a hurry, I brought you home without even asking if you wanted to come with me. Now, asking you the same question, I already have an answer in my heart. Thank you for your trust and affection. I also love you.

The first time I met you in person and heard you say you’re Milk, two thoughts instantly crossed my mind:

The cat I raised has become enlightened.

Turns out, you’re also bare, and it seems I also don’t deserve to have a furry animal.

Yes, that’s right. When I saw you waking up stark naked on my bed and heard your explanation, I was a bit lost. After living for so many years, I thought I finally had a cat, but it turned out to be all a lie.

Of course, reality proved that for me, all the furry creatures in the world combined couldn’t compare to just one of you. I, a heavy plush control, somehow transformed into a heavy Xu Jian control.

I don’t know if you’ve noticed when you started to have feelings, but I certainly didn’t. Without my awareness, I had already fallen for you. So, when I saw you, who usually only lets me hold you, obediently staying in Shen Xi’s arms that day, I felt extremely, extremely unhappy (PS: Climbing the wall in front of me, looking back, I find it irritating). You explained later that Shen Xi was your idol, praising his acting skills. At that moment, I was thinking:

Do I have bad acting skills? Why don’t you like me?

Actually, I understood it back then. Selfishly, I hoped that your heart and eyes would only be filled with me. That you’d see me, think of me, and, of course, only I could hold you.

You occasionally call me a petty and childish ghost, but I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. My petty and childish side is only shown to you, just like how only I can see the bed covered in Milk’s fur or the guilty look on your face when you wake up early. It’s fair.

We are the closest to each other. I can show you my softest side the moment we meet, and you can do the same.

You always say I tease you because you don’t know how adorable you are when you puff up. Of course, I’m not encouraging you to continue puffing up. Milk’s weight loss and fitness journey should continue, and Mr. Xu, your efforts to gain weight should also continue.

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As I write this letter, you’re on the sofa playing with your phone. I have no idea who you’re chatting with, but you’re laughing happily. Looking at you like this, I suddenly feel that the weather today is not bad at all.

The heavens must be on my side because, with just one of your smiles, the weather clears up.

Unknowingly, I’ve written a few hundred words, and I’ve drifted away from the main topic. Today is your 25th birthday, the first of many birthdays we will celebrate together in the coming years. Even though you haven’t mentioned it, I know you’ve been looking forward to your birthday gift for a long time.

You probably can’t guess what I’m going to give you. Or from the looks of your expressions this morning, you might think I haven’t prepared anything at all. To be honest, I did it on purpose. I wanted to give you a surprise.

After being together for so long, you’ve brought to me the most precious treasure that was missing in my life. Yet, I haven’t properly given you any gifts. I reflect on that, and I hope you’ll like today’s gift.

The past is the past, and I wish for Mr. Xu to have a safe and smooth journey ahead. May you always remain sincere, and most importantly, may you always love me.

In the future, whether it’s a path filled with prosperity or one with thorns, I will always, always be by your side.

Happy birthday, Mr. Xu, who is 25 years old.

Happy Birthday, Xu Milk, who can always celebrate Children’s Day with me.

—From Mr. Qin, who loves you, written on the 15th of July.

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The author has something to say:

As a single soul since birth, I’ve never written a love letter. Love letters are so difficult to write. I did my best. [Lie down]