Chapter 237.2: (Jill’s POV) A Conversation Between a Certain Noble and a Butler

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My name is Jill. I’ve been taking care of Heinrich-sama since he was a little boy as his butler under the order of Bavarian-sama.

After Heinrich-sama entered adulthood, I took on the position as Head Butler and was entrusted with the role of Heinrich-sama’s close aide. I might be biased because I had been serving him since he was little but I firmly believed that Heinrich-sama was the one most suited to be this town’s leader. I believed that even if he had to overthrow Bavarian-sama to achieve that, everything was justified in order to fulfill the goal of becoming this town’s leader.

I adored Heinrich-sama to that extent, so much so that I believed everyone beside myself shared the same belief as mine everytime Bavarian-sama caused trouble.

And so, I had been quietly supporting Heinrich-sama behind the scene, with the hope that Heinrich-sama would reign as the lord of this town as soon as possible.

I wonder, when did things go wrong?

Maybe it was because I blindly believed that someone like me shouldn’t voice any objection toward Heinrich-sama’s decision.

With the incident involving Keigo Okuda as the catalyst, Heinrich-sama was exiled from the town by Bavarian-sama, who was reinstated after Heinrich-sama overthrew him. An exile with nowhere to go, during the cold winter season to the boot. The chance that Heinrich-sama could survive through this ordeal was thin.

In the midst of such despair, I was imprisoned in the underground dungeon with the charges of rebelling against Bavarian-sama. Even Heinrich-sama received a punishment that was akin to execution. There was no way someone like me would be spared.

No, in fact, I wish they would just kill me instead.

Having lost “Heinrich-sama”, which was the sole purpose of my life, I didn’t see any point in living anymore.

My mind wandered to the cycle of reincarnation that the Church of Zelarion believed in. I thought maybe I could start anew with Heinrich-sama in another world. And, when I was attempting to slit my throat with a fork while I was in prison…

“Jill, don’t die. You must live on.”

Bavarian-sama said this to me when I was in prison. After he said that, he then left me alone.

“Bavarian-sama… He must be truly hurting because he had to lose his son…. I almost did something so selfish…”

I was appalled at my own selfishness. How dared I tried to take the easy way out alone. I was ashamed of myself, I felt frustrated and I really regretted it. Then, I remembered there was one thing left that I needed to do.

“I can start over again. I will turn over a new leaf and wholeheartedly devote myself to serve Bavarian-sama… If I can’t demonstrate the ideal way of life I aspire to, then how dare I say ‘everything for the sake of my master’?”

After having decided that, the idea of the cycle of reincarnation was no longer necessary for me.

“……This is my resolution. The distinction between the right and wrong.”

I decided to remove the pendant representing Zelarion god and return it to church.

After that, I was released from prison due to Bavarian-sama’s amnesty. The moment I was freed from prison, I immediately went to the church to return the pendant.

Sister Charlotte, who received the pendant and hearing my determination, smiled and then she said…

“You have not forgotten your faith. This is a test given to you by God. The door of Zelarion Church will always be open for you.”

“Thank you very much for everything up until now.”

Upon hearing that,I deeply bowed to the stone statue of Zelarion God and Sister Charlotte, temporarily returning my faith to God. 

And so, I started my life anew as a servant under Bavarian-sama.

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T/N: I thought I was translating a BL novel for a sec there.