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Chapter 148
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“It’s okay to stop if you think it’s too hard. It’s okay to run away if you want to run away. I might cry but nevertheless, I will still love you.”
She told me so. I never thought someone like her could exist. She could see through all of my feelings. She knew everything about my misanthropy disposition and still fully accepted me as I was. She also prepared a way for me to escape.
She became my everything.
It was just like a miracle.
I had never met anyone like her.
The best I could do in order to keep her from crying was by writing in a paper like this so I could sort out my feelings. I couldn’t really know for sure that the urge to be alone and to be left alone wouldn’t ever come again. But, in regards to my relationship with her, I was absolutely confident that things would be alright now.
On a hard night when I felt alone, I was certain she would hug me and lured me into a dream while being filled with an overwhelming euphoric feeling.
I already couldn’t live without her. Until the day she died, I would always become her shield and sacrifice myself for her sake. I would do all that so she could keep on living.
She might get angry if I said that out loud but I was certain sacrificing myself for her would be for the better. She might get away by merely feeling sad over my sacrifice but as for me, if she was gone, I would definitely die.
I think for me, that’s what being in love is.
Cooking was one of my fortes. I’ve cooked a lot in this world. I wanted to let her eat a lot of delicious food. I wanted to see her smile.
Everything in my life also belonged to her. Today too, I was thinking of making delicious food so I could prevent her smile from disappearing.
She liked to knit so in order to keep the room warm, I would chop firewood today as well. She knitted while I wrote. The slow passing of time that I spent with her was an irreplaceable moment for me.
Even after both of us grew old, even after we became grandfather and grandmother, I would still tell her that I love her every single day.
That was why, we’d definitely be alright.
Living and dying together.
That’s all there is to it.
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T/N: In male MC isekai novel like this, we don’t get to see the MC getting very deep in unraveling his feelings so I actually really like this kind of chapter. It’s nice to know how sincere and deep the MC’s feelings for Yurina.
She left literally everything but the clothes she was wearing and ran away with you. You certainly owe her everything of yours because of your selfishness.
Loner intensify
This novel turned out to be a really good guide for mentally overwhelmed people. Because thats just how it is. There are many people who love in that way but they have a very hard time resonating with modern way of love.
Reminds me of my brother. When he was 18/19 his fiance died and he was never the same afterwards. They became an item when he was 13 and their relationship was honestly pretty toxic yet wholesome. He allways says that there is nothing like love left in his heart. Even towards us ( his family) he became distant over the years. Even now after 13 years he just keeps on getting colder. I wish he could be like Margo and find someone so bright that he could stop thinking about her.
Yes. Everyone grief differently and there’s really nothing much we can do about it. If one’s family trying to reach out too hard, they might try to become more distant instead. It’s a hard rope to balance. I hope one day your brother can find his Sarasa too!
I love the growth of the MC from someone who doesn’t want to get involved with anyone to become someone who couldn’t live with someone he love, and also the changes he brought to anyone he met, like the trio friends and the haughty noble Bavaria.
It’s like butterfly’s effect too. MC directly and indirectly change the people around for the better. Maybe it’s because of how ‘innocent’ our MC is. He’s not overly kind or meddlesome. Like he’s just doing his thing.
Oh my… I cry..
Thanks for the chapter! Happy New Year!
Happy new year to you too! I hope we will have an amazing time this year too!