“And yet…. Even though I love you this much, you don’t understand my feelings at all.”
No! How am I supposed to know??? How am I supposed to know?? How?? Who can even read your emotion when you never even twitch? Or even move any of your mimetic muscles?! If there’s a human who can read it then show me yourself now!!
“……… Yeah… You are truly terrible…. Aren’t you terrible?….. Even though I love you this much.”
Isn’t that supposed to be my line? I’m the one who’s being pushed down though? I’m going to go on a journey from here on! Then suddenly you pushed me down and told me how much you love me, aren’t you the terrible one here??
I slowly called out to Alaine-san, my voice was calm and composed. There was no fear. I already knew fear well enough through my nightmares. Having a beautiful woman whom I knew talking to me wouldn’t bring fear in me.
………..Even if she pushed me down! Yeah!
“What is it?”
“……. Alaine-san, I understand your feelings but still, I need to go on this journey. I just can’t give it up for this. I need to go on this journey so I can find out the true meaning of myself.”
Yes. I need to find it out. Why did I get transported into this world? Why did my sense of taste die? Why am I plagued by nightmares every single night? Why did I have to lose my ‘son’?
Why can’t I talk about myself to another person?
I hate this. I don’t want to keep on living a life filled with agony like this. I don’t want to carry my anguish alone without anyone else to understand it.
“You want to find yourself.”
“Yes. As I’ve told you before, I have lost my memory.”
I don’t know why but I can’t tell anyone else that I came from another world. I can’t tell anyone else about my life before I got transported here either. That’s why I lied and made up an excuse that I have lost my memory.
“Where is my birthplace? What was I doing before I lost my memory? I can’t stand not knowing. I can’t stand not knowing about myself. I’m very grateful to you, Alaine-san. Thanks to Alaine-san, I’m able to go this far. I’m able to keep on living…. But still, I need to know.”
I appealed to her passionately. I looked up at her with upturned eyes, my eyes glistened in unshed tears.
Alaine-san slowly raised and got off the sofa.
………Oh? Could it be, my words got through? Does she understand me now?
“Then I will go on that journey together with you.”
I became completely frozen upon hearing Alaine-san’s sentence.
T/N: A very logical and sound conclusion I dare say. Good luck FL! I’m rooting for you!