I was an idiot for going to the meeting place with high hopes when he told me he had something important to talk about on Christmas Eve night.

We had been together for 4 years; I was 26 years old; I was at the right age to get married. He always said, “We’ll get married next year,”. He also mentioned that he was expecting a promotion at the beginning of the year, so how could I not be hopeful?

We would meet at the station, have dinner at a fancy restaurant, and finally he would surprise me with a proposal?

What an idiot I had been for imagining that!

I also hoped that afterwards we would stay in a slightly higher rated hotel? The next day is my day off, so I thought that we would spend the whole night together…Ah I’m really stupid for wearing such an expensive pair of underwear!

I had arrived an hour before our meeting time because I was so excited, but the person who appeared in front of me was a slender, well suited, beautiful woman.

Huh? Huh? Why are Shinjo-san and Fushimi-san together?

Oh, a coincidence? Maybe they ran into each other? …But why are the two of them locking arms with each other?

I think I looked at them with a blank stare. I must have looked pretty dumb.

“I’m sorry, Meiko. This is the way it is, so let’s break up.”

“I’m sorry Tanuki-senpai^[1]A senpai is a person who is either older, more experienced, in a higher social position or to a person who has entered the same school or workplace earlier.. Even though I knew you were going out with Shinjou-san, I just couldn’t give up…”

That’s right. I had kept it a secret from the company, but I had told Fushimi-san that I was going out with Shinjo-san in secret… or rather, she found out. Normally, if you already knew, would you still take your senior’s boyfriend?

I mean, what about Shinjou-san?

Would you dump your girlfriend of the right age after 4 years of dating and switch to a younger girl in the same department?

Have you thought about whether you’d have trouble with your previous girlfriend or maybe jeopardize your job?

What a steel mentality.

The shock was so great that I was left stunned. All I could say was ‘Oh, yes’.

Maybe because my answer was so simple, the two of them had a kind of subtle look on their faces, but in the end, they left with smug faces, arm in arm, with only the useless information of ‘We have dinner reservations’.

As for me, I walked around the city in a daze, unable to recover from the shock. The whole city was filled with Christmas excitement. Every shop I walked into was full of happy couples.

I finally found a small tavern in a back alley that didn’t seem to be celebrating Christmas at all.

“Sweetheart, sweetheart, are you okay?”

He gently shook my shoulder and I opened my eyelids. Oh no, I must have fallen asleep.

“Ah! I am having a great time!”

“Are you sure you’re OK?”

I noticed that I was apparently the only one there and the restaurant seemed to be closed for business.

While I was still sober, I managed to pay the bill and walked out of the shop, waving to the landlady who was anxiously seeing me out of the shop.

I shouldn’t have worn high heeled, fashionable shoes.

But still, what time is it? Did I miss the last train?

According to my original plan, I was supposed to be making out with Shinjo-san at the hotel by now. Until a few hours ago, I had no intention of taking the last train home.

Right now, Shinjo-san and Fushimi-san must be flirting with each other~ Having a pillow talk? The thought of me sleeping in bed alone, laughing at myself, made me feel angry and the good feeling of being drunk disappeared.

I am definitely not going to spend tonight alone…. I’m going to do whatever it takes to have sex with a man!

I was originally going to get laid tonight. A random stranger on the street, I’ll definitely eat your dick!

Bold ideas that I normally wouldn’t think of came out of my mouth that night. Being drunk is amazing.

Once I made up my mind, I had no choice but to find a partner.

I walked down the street, looking around with the eyes of a hunter.

All these guys were walking around with their arms around their partner. What is this!

Was there a law that says you can’t walk alone tonight?

Looking around, there are couples all over the place, and if you happen to see someone walking alone, it’s usually an old uncle so obviously one would hesitate somehow to approach him.

I’m going to eat dick tonight!

Although I was enthusiastic and said that but I didn’t mean that I could do it with anyone.

It was at that moment that I found a young man standing at the entrance of a dark building, one street off the main road.

I stopped and stared at him.

From a distance, I could see that he was well built, well dressed and older than me. I guessed that he was in his mid-thirties at most…

It was too dark for a rendezvous. He was all alone with no sign of a woman.

Yes! Success!

Once I found my prey, I scolded my shaky legs and hurried down the narrow alleyway in a straight line toward the man.