Chapter 105.2 : (Bavarian’s POV) Turning Disaster Into a Blessing! The Stupid Nobleman Is Going to Make It Right?!
My name is Resta von Bavarian. I was attacked by a lesser dragon and lost my right arm. I became terrified of everything, making me unable to leave my room. As a very minimal form of consolidation, I put the stone statue of my beloved Melty-chan (my horse) in my room.
The people around me must be thinking that I’ve gone crazy. But, I couldn’t even care less. To be precise, I’m now able to take a good look at myself. I’m not even aware that I’ve gone crazy. I’m just terrified of everything.
My hand trembles when I need to go before the public’s eyes. I can’t even eat on the table properly. Since I’ve lost my right arm, I’m unable to eat my meal well.
I have a feeling the servants are mocking me. Even when I’m curled in my bed at night, only black, negative thoughts circulating in my mind.
――I want to disappear from this world.
――I wish everyone will just die.
By the time I realized it, it was already morning. I fell unconscious to sleep as if I had run out of battery.
By secluding myself in my room, I become more sensitive to every incident happening. For example the weather outside, the seasonal change and the change in the servant’s expression and behavior.
In the middle of the night when everyone is already fast asleep, I slip out of my room and walk around the house. I’ve started to notice inconsequential things I had never noticed before.
My current crazy self and myself before I went crazy. Which one of us is the actual crazy one?
My name is….. I can’t even say my name so smoothly like before. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see my cheeks become hollowed because of how skinny I am and the dark circles under my eyes. My face looks terrible.
I think it’s good that I can realize that my face looks terrible. Since I can’t even sleep, I don’t even know how much time has passed. The only thing that keeps my heart on the ground is my Melty-chan (my horse) who has now become a stone statue.
I think the servants are acting colder to me than before.
One day, a technique user who’s able to lift the petrification arrived at my residence. It seems Shrike was the one that arranged for the technique user to come because he’s worried about me.
To my surprise, Melty-chan’s (my horse) petrification curse is lifted. She returns to her usual healthy self.
I break down into tears right here and there.
My condition is even better than before. To my surprise, I’m now able to leave my room during the day and visit Melty-chan’s (my horse) stable.
I remember that it feels like the sunlight is pouring directly into my heart. Gradually, I’m able to get more sleep.
It’s still painful for me to sit on the table to eat and see the servants face on but still, my heart is gradually healing. I think I’m going to be alright now.
Myself before I went crazy, myself after I went crazy and my current self. I can say it clearly now. I’m not crazy anymore.
T/N: His love for Melty-chan is no joke, huh… He becomes a completely better person because his Melty-chan is back…. (ㅍ＿ㅍ )